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I'm sorta tired of everything. It reminds me of a period I had earlier.. It's somewhere in this blog.. where everything just seemed so boring and uninteresting.. well.. it's over me again. I'm tired of school, of doing stuff on the PC, (especially stuff such as programming, making a website, etc. -- things considered creative) in other words, things that require me to work, but not really gain anything. (Except for school, since I gain in the currency of future knowledge and easier access to further studies, but I don't really feel like I gain something there and then. (unlike a job, where you know that if you work this and that much, you get this and that much money in your pocket) So right now, I spend most of my time playing games, watching movies and of course, like I'm doing right now (just figured I'd take a break and write something here (it's always good to write down how you feel, such as me about this stupid um... anhedonia as lynnlynn called it in my shoutbox back when I previously had it. It sounds about right. I don't get that nice feeling I'd usually get from doing something I normally enjoy. Normally I enjoy programming and making web-pages for instance. And normally, I like to go to school. At least I used to. Nothing much else is up in my life. It just goes on and on in its normal, monotone way. Thank God for TV and That '70s Show. It's my escape from reality. (at the moment, anyway) I'm not continously going to preach about it though. If you watch it, you'll either get hooked, or just think it's silly. I hope the first, but I am not a missionary, I'm not gonna force it into your head that it rules. I just think it does. Which it does. Comprende? OK, good. As I was saying earlier, I was just watching that, and I think I'm gonna return to that now. OK, so, see ya later, when something new goes on. That might take a while.. but you just hold tight, I might, like... see someone get hit by a car tomorrow. That may need to be written down and discussed. (by me, with me, over me) Current Mood: anhedonic EDIT: Oh, what a mess this post turned out to be. Broken chains of thoughts, unclosed parentheses.. oh well. I'll just correct one thing, since it's the only thing to ruin the understanding of something. Where I say |
| Damnation October 8, 2004 03:43 AM PDT It will pass, yes, and think of it this way.. it's better than a crisis situation.. it's just.. very flat. | ||
| darkphoenix October 7, 2004 11:00 PM PDT Thanks, in case you should ever return here and read this reply. I'll probably get over it some time. It's not meant to last, but GOD how annyoing it is when it's going on.. *sigh*-oh-nara.. | ||
| Damnation October 7, 2004 10:10 PM PDT Good word, anhedonic. I usually know most of what I read but that one I did look up so great you had the link there. I get that too.. just a total lack of desire to do (usually coming on after doing way to much and generally an unrewarded way too much) anything too. So you know you're normal. And really I am just a stranger commenting on your blog but hello to you and hope things pick up for you soon. :) | ||
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